I know it is a big ask, it can be hard for many of us to be willing to get our work out into the light of day. But it is important. In this video I address three questions: --- why do it? --- what is getting in the way? --- where is the hope?
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I'm not saying you should not be doing all that you are doing- but what if it wasn't such a big struggle? Maybe it is because we grew up in a culture with a powerful work ethic- we need to feel the effort, the struggle, the angst, in order to value the work. You can actually get just as much done with pleasure and ease, maybe even more. In this video I describe a metaphor that helped me understand that it is possible to not work so hard. It has everything to do with internal friction, getting in your own way. I would love to hear your thoughts on it! Please comment! When you fall out of your creative practice, time goes by and it gets hard to get the juices flowing again.
We have all been there and it can seem foolish because you know it will make life better to get in there again, but the internal critics get going and it is hard to get past them. So I want to share my trick with you, a way to slide past those critical voices. I call it doodles- you might have another name for it. The thing is that the internal critic is there to make sure that you are not going to be ridiculed and thrown out of the collective- this is important! and besides you do want to make work that is valuable and worth while. But if, for whatever reason you have not been making in a while, it is hard to get back in the flow if you are trying to do good work, respectable and valuable and deep work. And you know that making work will nourish your soul and make life a lot easier once you are doing it. So tell the critic that you are just making a doodle, throw away art, a little nothing, and she does not need to worry- you won't show anyone. That should calm her down. And then really get some material in your hands and play for a short amount of time without any direct purpose. Why make throw away art? really? I know you are busy- we all are- it is hard to make the time to do anything, if you are going to make time for art, you want it to matter.... Yeah I know. But this is just to get the juices flowing past the log jam that is your internal critic. You will find after doing this a few times you start to trust yourself a bit again and as the critic starts to feel how yummy it all is, she may let you dream a little bigger... if not, lets talk! subscribe to my newsletter for irregular bursts of inspiration and occasional wonderful offerings Learn more about co-working with me- it is amazing how it can help you get moving in the studio! Sometimes when we are in a place of growth or expansion or moving in a new direction, our internal voices can get really mean.
They say nasty things like "you always have great ideas and then don't follow through, you are going to fail again, don't even try it." When this happens- do not try to shove this voice away- instead invite it to a cup of tea. What I mean by this is in the video- but what I do not mean is take on all the mean things- certainly do not do that. That voice has something you need to hear and the way to do it is with compassion for all the fear that voice represents. subscribe to my newsletter check out my facebook page: https://www.facebook.com/taprootartsinsight Learn more about co-working with me More about coaching with me Can I interview you? It would be so helpful for me to hear what is going on for you so I can understand how to be of better service to artists and creatives and I would be happy to offer a coaching session in exchange. As a potter and a teacher of pottery I have a very simple saying that has come back to me a million times, "pots break". Pots break. Does this mean you don't put your heart and soul into it? No, you put your heart and soul into it. It means that you have to be willing and able to let go. You put your heart and soul into a piece, you fall in love with it, and then you give it to the kiln gods, and you let go. You have to let go. Because sometimes they come out beautifully, and sometimes not so much. And sometimes they break even before they get to the kiln. Pots break and it is part of the creative process. What I have found over the years is that when you put your heart and soul into a piece and you love it and it breaks, and you start over, the next piece will be even better. That is if you let yourself make the next piece and not try to make the same piece. Because you have learned something. I recently had a failure that looked more like a catastrophe. It was a kiln load of pots and sculpture and test tiles and my intern's work as well. And there was an explosion in the kiln. Yup. The kiln shelves were pulverized and the kiln roof was damaged and I lost about half of the art in the kiln. Luckily all of the intern's work survived. (read more below) So I was asked, what happened - how did this happen?
User Error was my first answer. My fault. And it's true, but I am not saying it to beat myself up, but rather to look at where are the mistakes that lead to this. What can I learn? After a day of walking around and poking at it and then a few days of asking some clay people and kiln people their opinions, I have a pretty good answer. I know how to fix it and I have learned a good set of lessons. Not the least of which was don't be casual about a firing - pay attention! Pots break and there are lessons. You have to take responsibility so you can learn what needs to be learned. It is important not to beat yourself up. User error happens. It doesn't mean stop, and it doesn't mean you suck. It means slow down and learn, and then keep going. ______________________________________________________________________________________
Have you ever considered having an open studio sale or being part of a neighborhood art tour?
I made this video when I was preparing to invite people to my yard to see my art as part of a neighborhood art tour. I offer it to you here as a way to think through the value of sharing your work in a tender way. The idea of a neighborhood art tour brings up the balance between professionalism and vulnerability. To be "professional" you would present only the spit-shined art in a clean gallery setting. It's the resume self. And there is great value in doing that. It is a way to get out of the way of the art and let it do its thing with the viewers. It is not about you, the artist. The thing is that I am scrappy - and art is messy. Maybe this is true for you too? Opening my space to the public is allowing them to see my vulnerable underbelly. All of my self doubts are right there. I do not have a perfectly manicured lawn, and the chickens are likely to come sauntering through. It is an invitation to the human side of creative practice. Is this a good idea? What I came to at the time is a deep realization that I wonder if you would resonate with. My art is about the vulnerable underbelly. It is ok to share that with people because they also have a vulnerable underbelly and they may also want a little permission not to be perfect and spit shined. Also as artists we need to have our work received and to feel it being received in order to continue to understand the value of it. This means interacting with an audience in some way. Art is a communication and if it is not received then it is like talking on the phone when no one is there. At a certain point you stop talking. The ideas dry up. It will nourish your creative side to have that connection and quite possibly someone will walk away with some new understanding or deeper awareness because of your work. You have to trust that. I did and it was a really great day of socially distant connection! _______________________________________________________________________________________
So many artists and creatives have this glitchy little voice that says that they are not a real artist.
"Someone else is the real artist - my sister, my neighbor, that other person - has the real creative genius. Not me." It totally gets in the way of your showing up in the studio or to whatever your creative pursuit is. What do you do about it? How do you get around it? First, acknowledge it and laugh: "There you are again, trying to get in the way of creative work." It is a sub-personality, and there is great work that I do with clients about getting to know the sub and helping to make it feel less threatened and therefore have less power over you. But the main thing to remember is that it is not truth that it is speaking - it is trying to keep you small to keep you safe so it is lying to you. It is like a scared child who is afraid to be seen. Second, understand that being creative is a human trait. It is part of what it means to be human. It is our birthright. It is what we use to engage in the world, to present ourselves, to process our painful bits.
In order to put in that time and dedication it helps to have the sense that it is worth it, that you have something of value to offer. This is the way that I think of it. You are a channel of creativity - we all are. We move through the world, living life, making mistakes, noticing what we notice and bumbling along. All of this is collecting in us- it all soaks in and gestates inside of us. Then, when we sit down to create, it comes pouring out of us- through our very particular and individual lens. We express what we need to see and hear, and that in turn is what others need to see and hear. Simply by being engaged in the world, if you are paying attention and caring, and if you make something that you need, you are going to express something that others need too. Not everyone, but probably someone needs your perspective. So take a leap of faith. Pretend that you have something to offer and it will reveal itself as you fall in love with your own work.
If you are an artist or creative who has an inner voice that is saying that it is arrogant to want to have your work seen by others, to take up space, you need to hear this.
That inner voice is trying to protect you from being ridiculed or thrown out of the human collective. It is fearful. It is an important voice, but it is doing its job inappropriately at this point. It is getting in the way of something important. We need your work. We need the heartfelt, vulnerable, soul searching art work that you are creating. So turn to that inner voice that is fearful of being judged and listen to it. Give it gratitude for the work it is doing to protect you, give it a hug, and let it know that you are handling it. Put that voice to the side and get to work!
It is really common for people who are making creative work to look at their work the next day and be bummed that they do not like it as well as they thought they did. Or all they can see is the mistakes and things they wish they had done differently. If this is you, does this mean you are not a real artist? I talk about it in a little more depth in this video, but in a nut shell: No. What it means is that you have a fairly sophisticated critical awareness of your chosen material, be it music, writing, visual art or whatever. You have been listening to really great music, looking at visual culture, reading books all your life. You know on a deep level what good work is, what you are turned on by. This is good -- really good. The problem is that your own skills in creation have not caught up yet to your base of understanding. Be patient. Keep working. The thing you really need to do is give yourself permission to play, to follow what is compelling to you, and to let yourself be a beginner, or exactly where you are in your process. Thank your internal critic for holding out hope for that high standard. And for being such a perceptive aid in helping you make improvements over time. You will get there if you keep going. Really. Keep going. So many creatives find themselves procrastinating on things they want to do. We have all been there and it sucks.
First the most obvious- it does not help to berate yourself! It actually makes you feel bad and creates an internal friction that makes it harder and harder to get anything done. It saps energy. So when you start to hear the berating internal voices saying things like you are lazy and incompetent, it is a signal that you need to look at some questions: 1. Am I giving it the time that it needs? This is both the amount of time and a time of day where there is the energy and focus. If you are trying to get yourself to do it at a time of day when you are exhausted for example, your inner rebel will wake up to protect you. 2. Are you thinking of it as one BIG thing? If you break it into steps and focus on just the first thing, you will not feel as overwhelmed by it. 3. What is competing with it for time? There might be other priorities that you need to weigh. What is the most pressing thing that you want to attend to? Maybe it is OK to wait for this other thing to be complete. Or maybe you can have a more realistic understanding of how long it will take. 4. What is it about the thing that you are trying to do: Do you need more support, either co-working/accountability or to talk it through with someone? Do you need to do more research or learn some skill in order to move forward? Listen for the message that your resistance is trying to give you! You may need to think about what you can edit out of what you are doing with your time, or figure out a way to budget your time so that you can get the self-care, rest and nourishment you need in order to do the thing you want to do. Remember as you ask yourself these things to bring a sense of compassion. Say to yourself "OK, I am not bad, so what is it that I need in order to move forward?" |
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