Have you ever felt that sense that you are a fraud? For creatives this is a normal part of the creative cycle. And it can be very painful, but it does not have to be. It is very common after a period of creative activity to feel like a fraud and a dilettante- The voice in your head starts berating you with things like, "All these fabulous ideas are silly and they are going no-where." "You do not have what it takes." This can spiral into a real morass of self-pity- as you look around and feel completely isolated- you have been so caught up in your own thing that you do not feel your sense of connection with anyone. You start telling yourself that you have been a self-centered egomaniac and everyone has gone off to enjoy each other and ignore you. Ouch this is painful! Am I going over-board here? I may be stating it rather strongly, but for many creatives, be they small business owners, artists, writers, musicians it does feel like a seriously painful roller coaster. First of all this is a normal cycle for a creative person, and maybe in-fact for all living beings- it comes with the territory- like the phases of the moon or a woman’s cycle- the tides- the seasons- there are times that are full of growth and potential, times of flowering, and times to drop the leaves and go inside and recoup. What’s more there are layers- we exist with many concurrent cycles- from short cycles like breathing or the heart-beat, to the need for rest at the end of the day, and our one singular life within the generations of our family. We have our own cycles and we exist within much larger cycles.
In the creative life of an artist, there is often a fall after you get your show or event up and over or a new piece created. But it may also be that you have just been in an exciting time of creative ideas, and seemingly for no reason, the bottom drops out. It can really throw a person off! It does not have to be this bad- it is completely possible to live a balanced and happy life and be an artist- despite what our cultural stories of the suicidal creative genius tell us. You do not have to fall into a pit of despair in order to be able to reach your delicious and delightful creativity. And I would argue that it is really important to follow your creative impulse not just for you but because each of us has something important to offer this larger organism of our culture. We need your insights! The trick is to pay attention to allow for all of the layers of cycle- not just the big ones. You need to breath throughout the day, and rest at night. This is both reality and metaphor. So to balance out your creative work you need: Connection- to balance the solo activities, to know that you are part of something much larger than yourself and you are not alone Body awareness as grounding- to balance the fantasy life and out there creative activity Release- some way to let all of this creative energy find a fruitful home. These are a few specific ways to find your feet when the bottom has dropped:
It goes the other way as well- the thing about living life is that it can mask out the creative life and suddenly it has been a year or two since you picked up the paint brush. If you do not allow yourself the luxury of creative time it will push on you in obscure and painful ways until you give it voice. If it has been a long time- be gentle and stay tuned- Join my mailing list and get some nourishing nuggets toward your creative passion. Back to you! I am very curious about your story- does the bottom drop out for you? What triggers it? And what gets you back on your feet? Can I help? If you would like to see what it would be like to get help so that you can get grounded and productive as an artist, click here to schedule a free introductory appointment.
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